Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Kacau!

3:31 pagi, 15 November 2006. Malam entah ke berapa, tidur terganggu. Malam di TSP. Seorang. Dada terasa amat menghimpit. Nafas amat singkat. berbunyi-bunyi. Bergetar-getar. Seksa teramat. PC masih bernyala menerangi kamar sepi ini. Teraba-raba mencari pil yang tersembunyi. Jumpa. Ambil sebiji dari dua jenis. Pil dari Penawar Poliklinik. Telan. Paru-paru masih terhimpit. Duduk. Tarik nafas dalam-dalam. Lepas panjang-panjang.

Cuba untuk hilang fokus pada nafas yang sesak, bangun dan taip ini. Di kotak fikir, masih memikirkan tentang esok, "Hari Anugerah Cemerlang SKTSP". Mungkin sedikit cacat jika 'aku' tiada. Tangan berpeluh-peluh, nafas yang sesak sedikit reda. Hampir terasa lapang. Fokus sekarang, menyambung tidur. 3:50 pagi, 15 November 2006.

80 comments:

Anonymous said...

Saya amat teringin untuk berada bersama-sama gathering geng jurnal pada sabtu (18 November ini) ini. harap-harap kita dapat berjumpa di sana, jika saya larat untuk tiba.

blackpurple @ jowopinter said...

Aku tak segan-segan utk datang jika kau membuat penampilan istemewa bersama persembahan kau........hehehe...

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Ko ni hampus ker? Nak datang jugak boleh?

Anonymous said...

Moga Bro GT cepat sembuh. 18 Nov. tu saya ada di KL. Tp. mesyuarat di Hotel De Palma dgn DBP. Terlepas Gathering GJ dan hi-tea dgn. Kelab Sahabat M.Nasir.

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blackpurple
kalau kau ada, aku pun adalah.

cuaca
rasanyalah mcm nak mampus. kalau anda ada blog, anda di alu2kan..

rimanilzah
mungkin, 'next time'

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